Obama: romance edition

I think I've found the cover for my next book. LOL



And possibly a DVD release. ;-)

The Nature of Temptation (or why DanRad is driving me nuts)

I admit it. I've been a Harry Potter fan since...well, since way before the star of the movies went through puberty. I've seen them all entirely too many times, read the books, read and write fanfiction, and did I mention I actually cursed when I heard the most recent movie release is delayed? Yes, I have it that bad. But, I know my fixation with the movies is purely based on a love of all things magical and fun. Really. Completely innocent.

Then there's this thing with Daniel Radcliffe. It's gotten so bad I watch his interviews on YouTube. It's gotten so bad I find myself staring at his (nice, fully dressed) photos without even realizing I'm doing it. It's gotten so bad, he's got his own tag on this blog as well as my "normal" blog. *sigh* He's actually topped Angelina on my "people I have shameless fantasies about" list. I'm sure this is temporary. Maybe.

Okay, there's nothing wrong with finding him attractive because he's 19, right? I didn't know until recently that the age of majority in England is 16, so that makes it even less weird to lust after him, right? Right. It's not my fault though. He just...he sits there looking all sexy and beautiful and says funny things and makes dirty jokes and I just. can't. take. it. I laugh and smile and I start thinking things I should NOT be thinking about him. He's too young. Or not. I know at his age I didn't feel too young to say and think some of the things I did. It's just that, with him, I feel like I should have some boundaries because I've been a fan since he was 11. Yes, it makes me feel old. No, I haven't cared for almost a year now. Well, I do care, but not enough to start thinking only pure thoughts again.

Take his most recent interview with Details magazine (hitting stores next week). The reporter describes him as wearing Absolut Joy jeans and Dan says "that's what lurks beneath" his fly and what do I do? Drool and start picturing that. And the sexy smirk he was probably wearing when he said it. And getting him out of the jeans. Bad! I blame him. He's corrupted me and none of this is my fault. I would only think innocent things about him if his photo shoots were tame and he never made comments like this. And the intriguing comments continued through the interview. I want a copy of this magazine. I don't even care that they photoshopped him to death on the cover. He still looks hot. I can't wait to see the rest of the pics from the shoot.

I will admit to some questions when he said he would love to play a drag queen because it would give him a chance to wear loads of eye makeup. Um...not that I'd care if he'd want to wear a dress for another reason, but would it make me think he's hotter if he is bisexual? (Not that wanting to dress like a woman means anything relating to orientation, but that's where my thoughts went.) It probably would. Probably not a politically correct thought process, but it did have me picturing him in a dress and myself putting on his makeup. And then telling him how pretty he is. And then showing him how much I appreciate his beauty in a very personal way.

I should probably stop reading his interviews. (Especially since I've started wondering when he lost his virginity and liked the idea of him not being a complete novice in the bedroom. And alternately wishing he was so I could fix that.) It does nothing but put bad thoughts into my mind. So, that's it then, right? I'll stop watching his interviews, reading them, looking at photos, watching his movies...nah. I can't do that. I can't do any of that. Not only do I not have that kind of willpower, I'm enjoying this torture. I know I shouldn't be all silly and fangirly where he's concerned, but screw that. I like it. Enough that what was going to be a two paragraph blog entry has turned into this.

I want him. Damn him. Or should I say fuck him? LOL Never mind....

too old to be picky

I can't even tell you how much it scared me when I registered for this dating site on a whim and one of the first guys to hit on me was 54. 54?! I was 24 at the time and I'd set my preferred age thingy to 21-35. I was thinking, either he's a pervert or I should loosen up my standards because men 30-40 hit on me all the time. Which makes me feel weird. When I was 14 (going on 35) and until I turned about 19, I had no problem flirting with guys at least 10 years older than me. Of course, I was silly then and it made me feel "grown up." Now it scares me that I'm in the age range where mid-30s is not "old" and I'm still single. When a guy in his 30s hits on me, it makes me wonder why he thinks I should be interested. I'm weird, right? And then, of course, I feel even stranger for being attracted to guys 5-7 years younger than me. Like something's wrong with me. *sigh* This internal debate is only a chick thing, right?

Sex Education

On another subject, Palin and Bush have both provided examples of policies that don't work. Abstience only sex education not only didn't work for Palin's own daughter, it increased the teen pregnancy rate in Texas while Bush was governer AND after he left and it hasn't been shown to work ANYWHERE it's been implemented.

I took at least three sex ed classes when I was in school and they tried every method. Biological teachings, disease scare tactics and telling us we could get condoms at the clinic and what our other options were for people who were going to do it anyway. People are so afraid to be honest with their children, they don't realize that a little bit of a common sense goes a long way. Just because a teenager "should" know how to get birth control if they need it or "should" be able to abstain doesn't mean they will.

Questions of morality aside, is it better parenting to let your child do what they're going to do knowing they'll get in trouble for asking about birth control or let them take responsibility for their own decisions? I know what my answers are. I'm not saying schools should have to teach children about birth control, but for parents who are too scared do it themselves, they shouldn't be prevented from trying to do something proactive.

Total Eclipse

I may not have the soul of a poet, but I can appreciate the passion inherent in the people who do. I admit, I haven't seen anything of David Thewlis outside of the Harry Potter movies, so this movie was something of a learning experience for me. Never let it be said that I have nothing to learn about the breadth of an actor's abilities.

The first thing I have to say is: wow. Not because I got to see both Thewlis and DiCaprio naked from a few interesting angles, but because I didn't expect the relationship (and especially the love scenes) to come across as realistic. Okay, ignore that this is a woman talking about two men coming together. I swear, I'm not referencing my porn collection. I've seen a few movies where the dramatic parts seem real, but when it comes to intimacy, it feels like two actors reading well-rehearsed lines and nothing more. There's a different feel to any movie when the actors on screen can make you forget they're just going by a script and make you believe they are the people they're portraying.

The story is a little choppy (taken from letters of the real men involved), but the play of emotions and the back-and-forth conflict of their relationship held a realism I haven't seen in a movie in a long while. This movie reminded me why I was such a huge fan of Leonardo DiCaprio in the 90s. Thewlis has gained a new level of my respect as an actor. I now know I've missed out by not seeing more of his movies.